今晚要开工了。许久没有上班（虽然只有6天）。
很想念上班的日子，还会看到很多很久没有见的同事，呵呵！
很想念你们哦~~~~~~

大哥他曾经说过，我一脚踏两船是不对的。毕竟这样做是不对的。
他推测我曾经被别人伤害过，所以变成这样吧？
开始的jas很活泼，很无忧无虑的。
当然也很天真，就这样，我被人骗了第一份感情。
我的初恋，我是第三者。悲哀。
伤害？我可能不承认自己失败吧？
就这样几次了，我坚强的生活着下去。无论怎样，我觉得这个世界很大，别人没了你，他同样可以生存下去，我也可以。

你们知道吗？我一直都是在逞强。咬牙切齿的生存着。
tats no place tat a gal like me belong....i must stay very freaking tough to live on a pain tat no one can suffered.
a monster in my body is growing bigger and bigger.

其实要了解一个认真的很难。
我以为我了解你，原来，我被他骗了。
所谓的很寂寞，很无聊都是骗人的。
我习惯了。我也没有任何损失，只是觉得很伤.
但是伤伤下，不知觉的接受了事实。
我也不再挂念。你和我的从前，而且清楚那是过去。
我很笨，但是我曾经对你，是真的。
我不会欺骗自己的感觉。
我还是自私的jas.

After yam cha session, we(WKL, Beh Beh and shi fu) went to this lil stall road beside to enjoy a taste of durian, i been so obsess to durian !!! so, ya, we had it after a bottle of Skol.

Chee hoi said my blog quite emotional, admitted tat. i dun know what can i blog when i put it too serious like those gals,"i went where else where else shopping", "i bought what shit what shit", ok.

and i bought asam laksa, it bring my body heat to the max ! tml MC =X

Ok....i banged another car. Twice in 2 months.
My colleague's car? Toyota Vios.
Injured? none.
Car injured? terribly (is my car-RICKY ZAIIIIII)
and his ? left side bumper falls.... -.-"
my car is 2nd, but i think he loves his car damn much. And he asked me not to pay him back.
tats impossible... ... i dun like to owe ppl money or anything.


why ? what im thinking lately ? wasnt i on the mood of concerntration ?
maybe not enough of sleeps and not getting output as input so many?
as i dun trust ppl around me ?
really wish someone tat understand can tok to me, consult me and care for me.

Freakin horoscope so damn accurate. WTF !

i been so long didnt dare to see my horoscope, maybe im afraid tat it would cos i lost my day, and it just did !
みて。。

The Bottom Line
Other people may dramatically affect your day. Create a backup plan.

In Detail
When you're driving in your car, you realize that you are not the only driver on the road -- after all, you must be aware of what other people are doing in order to be as safe as you can be. This awareness should apply to all areas of your life right now. Take note of who is around you and how they are behaving. Be careful of how others may affect day's scheduled route. Plan a detour, just in case.

Xes gave me a site is about HTML coding for the xmas snowing effects, hehehehe.... http://www.dynamicdrive.com/dynamicindex3/snow.htm

so i asked a fren(colleague of mine) min min to help me edit this ^^ THANKS !! and hepi xmas................to all the readers in Jas's blog....

=====MERRY CHRISTMAS !! =====

刚和一位女朋友谈天。
才知道自己好像看透了感情。
有时候和他聊电话的时候都好像没有什么了。
那种热情，都好像很假装。
我知道自己没有不爱他，也没有不热情的对他。
但是好像少了点点什么。

-不知道-^^

Really quite a busy lately.

-need to finish ASRM asap, which is tonight, so tat tml i can go print something in da office. due date : tonight.
-need to finish the list of guests names in Marge dinner. due date : tomolo night.
-need to arrange a list of compilation songs for the dinner. due date : postponed to tomolo night.

and im sleepy sleepy and sleepy. But i still dun like to sleep.=P

每天对自己说做不到的男人最没有用了。
你想不想真的做没有用的人啊？


笨蛋！

shit, when i about to open blooger.com, i at here dun know what i wanted to blog bout. Just when i felt some inspiration, and my brain blank in few second. ya, anyway.

realise living is a good thing. and working for living is kinda fun, start to love ur work when u trying to enjoy them. same here. so ya...............i ll start to focus on my work. of cos my financial. i also realise tat i didnt concerntrate and work my part well. wanna become a team leader ? u need a very hardwork WOMAN ! u think easy ar ?? so, i sitting here trying to read ASRM (define: Application System Run Manual)

living in luxury is such a joy........................im not trying to be materialistic, but is so attracted u c....很多东西等着我去做。真的很多，生命真的多精彩。hehe....

sometimes stupidility can make urself to see clearer how human react when everything is not under their own control but 3rd party controlled.

frens will said it was stupid trust gals. is true, but ya... ... at least, someone felt aggresive and furious but im not. bad gal is worse. dun u think ?

maybe i cant stop the arguement between us.
and finally i let u choose, and let u said.
why are u think tat u are not important to me ? is this what my return after all the things ?
proposed ? i maybe too rush about it la...
come on la, lets forget about it... ...
大哥说，和你结婚那个未必是你最喜欢的那个。

Few days back, i propsed to kit.
"can u married me ?"
"........."
"u heard me right ?can u married me ?"
"why ?"
"cos i want to marry u loh...."
"i said b4, we havent...."
"i know i know, financial ar....relationship ar...i understood...so u maried to me ?"
"no."
"........"
"why no ?"
"cos dun want loh!" conversation ended here, back there a laugh, hahaha !
he blushed ^^ and i feel so hepi to see him smiling.....
i want to propose again ^^ this time with 2 rings, see he married me or not.
dai kor said i rebel from traditional. i dun care la...i wanted a married and i will maintain it. if this cant be done by Kit, so i wish to do for myself.

kidd = xiu hei guai !! but i love him so much....i dare not angry anymore, cos i know u care about me. and waited me last night >.<

This coming xmas will be my sister's wedding dinner @ Marco Polo Restaurant.
whole family is looking towards it. All the invitation seems to give away by my parents, and my lil sister fion is looking for a dinner dress and my big sis Marge is readying her wedding gown.

And me ? sitting here doing nth while blogging, hmmm......this sat will go some place to find my gown, black in color, long.....fion the red swam, marge the white swam, and of cos....im the black swam. This Xmas, our family will be all together. Happy Family. ^^

0617am after 26 hours of shift, i finally sleep till now. This is my 1st time ever work so hard. why ? cos i cant stop down. if i stopped down, my emotion will take over me, i cant make a proper decision. Shell saids it right..i got a lot distraction, it has be some way to get out, right ? im not a person tat sit there waiting or sighing, im a problem solver. ppl said im a very aggresive gal. ya, tats true. anger management....

0638am saw this in someplace, "There is no more sunshine nor rainbow as the storm has taken over the both..." i still care about it. and it will never gone from my heart no matter how hard i tried to get it off. shit....if u understand what i said....

things tat flash thru my head today:
a rebound relationship....when u can ur bf/gf broke up, suddenly a person appeared, will he/she be the victim of u rebound ? i think i ll. and i will treated him exactly like a true bf....maybe i aint tat love him, but i ll try too. tats so unfair to the rebound victim, but what to do ? we are human, human do have feelings.... i dun want any of my frens be my rebound victim.

i been sitting whole day there busying my changes, my job, my backups, my control-m and my TNG, very tired due to yesterday played bowling and i didnt sleep too well at night...i wanna learn as many thing as possible when he still here to teach me. He is a great guy =) a farny gemini, kekeke...calling me Khoong Pui Sze.-.-" what the shit ? and telling other TS to call me like tat next time. AINT FARNY !! but one thing is, he said i learn things quick but forget things fast =X kekekkekekee....

been so tired lately, mind and body. tats all i have to say in this blog.
and ya....i miss LKC. no matter what happen, i will still let u choose ur own path. i dun want to argue anymore la, tat is worse.

a fatal attracted--a fatal faith--a fatal breakingover--a fatal missing--a fatal memories--a fatal past. - full-stop

Passion comes, passion goes...
what is ur passion of life ?

my passion of life is just wanting to get wild now. but aint this time.
cos my passion is slowly dying and is slowly killing me.
back into normal again. damn, is just too normal to be true.

Spazzo Bistro (Melacca) Pres. BOOTYLICIOUS NIGHTS on 6th December 2006

dun get me wrong, i didnt go. just helping frens to promote ~ but ya ! KL why dun have one ????i cant show off my bikini and body DUH !!!

咩世界？依家解释唔到以后都唔稀罕解释。
第一次用广东话来翻译自己个心情，无奈。
时不时浪费自己的时间type一type反映下都唔错。
烂香港人都其实唔会晤好。=P
容易忘记o耶啊嘛！

for those dun know how to read chinese.(pls use HK to translate)
mie sai kai ? yi ka kai sik mm dou, yi hao dou mm hei hon kai sik.
dai yat ci yong gong dong hua lai fan yik zi gei geh sum ching, mou noi.
shi bat shi long fai zi gei dik shi kan type yat type fan ying yat har dou mm cuo.
lan xiong gong yan dou kei sat mm hui mm hou. =P
yong yi mong gei ye a ma !

for those dun really understand what i type above, pls read this.....-.-"
what world is this ? cant explaint now, dun think can explain.
1st time using KwongTong language to translate my mood, speechless.
sometimes wasted time to reflect my mood, not bad.
be a hong kee sometimes also not bad.=P
easy to forget things ah ma !

Tats a lot in life, tat u have to choose.

and u all will know im actually a very unhepi person....with this sort sort sort of reasons...

i made a lot ppl hepi b4, i bring them go cafe, let frens all around him/her, i dun abandon those being forgotten. but i let myself suffered. maybe it hurts me damn deep, its still haunting me...i sweared b4, wanna be a hepi person. let a guy love me as long as possible. i be tat tough bcos i dun know who will love me like i will protect myself more. i gave too much out, never search for return from u. but i saw some returned from u, its not a good return.

K....its been so hard. u know ?

dun know leh...i dun wanna be ordinary... ...
-dun wanna just sit there let ppl pampared, altho no one will.

-dun wanna just write blog with fancy self-taking pic, cos im not narcissistic person.

-dun wanna show off my pod, cos i dun like HIM to be publicity.

-dun wanna put PINK only at my page and represent im a gal, cos im half gal half boi. cos i like both guys and gals.

-dun wanna wear fancy clothing and making funny pose to just catch ppl attention, cos im not a mannequin by wearing just mask.

-dun wanna have a bf bcos i WANTED to have one, cos i love him to be uNIQUE and bad.

-dun wanna keep tokking polite shit infront of ppl, cos im not pretender.

- dun wanna just write blog for the sick of ppl KNOWING me, just wrote it cos i feel i wanted to. and is not GAY.

so on and so on....

My shift = Team B
Team member = Lim (keong zai), Jason and Jas
Handphones = Helo MOTO
Look = of cos beauty and the beasts
Horoscopes for the team members = all Tauruses
Attitudes = Furious, aggressive, bull, dull, work hard play hard
Team slogan = Cow Cow team (brought to u by the TL Keong zai)
*will post up pics when free*

=P

Chocolate..........it taste like LOVE, ya ! now i know why couple will buy choco for each and others. I addicted to chocolate lately...i dun usually eat chocolate when my blood pressure was under average, anyway, im just kidding...
I bought a lot chocolates when im night shift, but after consumed it, i felt so damn excited....
HELLLLLLLLL.......when this morning i saw a lil pimples at my face, i IMMEDIATELY BANNED chocos for a year !!!! no no.....no chocolate banana cake, no snikers, no crunchy !!
drink as much water as possible...and old folks like me out there....pls dun consumed too many chocos la...u guys all old d =X

I didnt built my empire in a strong based. Tats why im failed.
nvm, i can try again, until i get to step into other territories and make a new empire.
i ll change the way ppl think and be what is shud be....

what am i tokking bout la ? EW !
sleepy.......................................night ~
now is 9:33 am.

Was online chatting with one of my ex bf, not quite sure why suddenly a PSP topic came to this sensitiveness topic. (look, i dun get disgrace of chatting on this topic....but, just prevent it from any of my exes, due to some PERSONAL REASON? -.-)

well......he bring on this topic, his gf is taking injection on prevent pregnancy, ya, tats good to prevent and safe(gua?). So i did some research immediately in my desktop. this is some research bout tat kind of "PREVENTION"

Depo Provera
How it works: Depo Provera, also known as “the shot,” consists of progestin, a synthetic version of the female sex hormone progesterone. A single injection in the arm or buttock can prevent pregnancy for 12 weeks. Progestin prevents the ovaries from releasing eggs and thickens the cervical mucus to prevent sperm from joining eggs.

Effectiveness (failure rate):
0.3%. Of 1,000 women who use the pill, only 3 will become pregnant during the first year with typical use.

Contraindications:
Personal history of blood clotting problems, strokes, or coronary disease
Personal history of cancer of the breast or reproductive system
Abnormal liver function
Current pregnancy
Unexplained vaginal bleeding

Possible side effects, risks, and considerations:

these do not occur in all users
Irregular bleeding, nausea, and sore breasts may occur
The effects of Depo cannot be easily reversed
Depo offers no protection against STDs

he said like its easy, and having sex as much as they could....
well...boi ar ! u know ur gf do this bcos of u 2....and u shud sayang her more and more, but not just SAY ya ! if im tat gal, i DEAD n SO NOT want to have tat FREAKING INSANE injection lohhhhh........whats wrong with women ? have to came across such pain ??? period is making us gone crazy laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa....somemore wanna layan guys ? WTF ?

Cant sleep la, so i typed what i want within 2 months.

a Calton badminton racque
a pair of swim goggle
a swimsuit
a PSP
a NDS
6 new dresses/skirts/pants(dun care what brand la, not branded brats)

jas will never missing anymore lo....
dead oledi.....

夜阑人静。
我到底喜欢黑夜的什么？听说只有魔鬼的世界是黑暗，那是多么吸引人的诱惑。
开始崇拜黑色的，黑色的，黑色的，邪恶的。
魔鬼的交换条件不仅可以带来荣华，还带走原来的人性。
不知道却交换了。
人性丧失，荣华已过，吹残人间，不禁感叹。
自己选择的，无所申诉。借酒消愁不可消，何必想得如此多余？

Just on the mood to not wasting my time sleeping whole day. will go out hang out with a couple of frens of mine and tok "cock" (i mean in guys word =X) didnt keep in touch with them like ages due on my shift work. is kinda "SONG" when i off, they are working, hehe...they are envying, but they didnt know i ENVY THEM MORE looooooo... a fren of mine said she likes my work scope, i was like, WTF ? chasing SLA like mad....boot server till sien....offday only on daily but not weekly and u said u envy me ? dun play me laaa....>.<
at last.......meeting my fren tml morning for breaky....suddenly raining !! =.=

Just on the mood to not wasting my time sleeping whole day.
will go out hang out with a couple of frens of mine and tok "cock" (i mean in guys word =X)
didnt keep in touch with them like ages due on my shift work.
is kinda "SONG" when i off, they are working, hehe...they are envying, but they didnt know i ENVY THEM MORE looooooo...
a fren of mine said she likes my work scope, i was like, WTF ? chasing SLA like mad....boot server till sien....offday only on daily but not weekly and u said u envy me ? dun play me laaa....>.<

U built me....
U completed me....
Although we have fights back there, u will still stick with me....

Although whatever i do, my decision, u will always have some complaints/objections about it....but at the end, u still trust me and be with me....cos u know, i will never accept failure in my life.

Although u know i like to be with my frens, when i being boycott by others, u will always be the one, tat let me disturb u when u ta kei-ing lo....^^ and u said, "nvm lo, they dun k u, u always got me ma....."

Thanks oh....u-know-who-r-u lo !! hehe....

The architecture of Temple Expiatori de la Sagrada Familia....is just awesome !All the while i just too into those Gothic architecture thingy....this is a masterpiece altho it not been finished by the great.

Place : Spain, Barcelona....
Architectural : antoni Gaudi....genius of all time ~
Not just Sagrada.....take a look at the Park Guell....

Park Guell(Above)

The great Sagrada....(below)

Hey, this is a piece of INFORMESI ! remember before when u try to enter the NEWS, have the sound tut tut tut tut tut tut tut tut? thsoe are moss codes !!! the moss codes sound like this....

，- --- -.. .- -.-- -. . .-- ...

Well....wanna spread some hepi thing here,
cos....
life is full of.....
U..............Daft Punk...............Hope................and.........hehe !
Thanks..........for daft punk's digital love.

hehe...so excited. about what i wanna do.
have enough sleeps, alchohol free, think and do, shit, im desperate now !!
desperate on my future.

You Play it Cool

You're not in your face, smokin' hot... and it's all by design You have a carefully crafted cool persona, leaving everyone wanting to know just a little more.

Are You Hot?

Nth to do mai come here and play lo =X but is true, jas is SO DAMN COOL ! HAHAHHAA...

One fine day, a colleague of mine resigned(as expected).
me : why ?
him : cos i had a bad situation here, i wanna study.
me : where ?
him : UK.
me : tats not easy, u think carefully.
few days back, as me too, he finding info bout his course, and a day ago, he screaming to another of my colleague. i got no clue where shud i start, immigration ? studies ? course ?

if u wanna do something on urself. is hard, but this is what u wanna do, right ? so do it with passions. Do It Yourself.

Weeks ago, i was thinking how to solve my study fees(trying to solve), my living(work it lo!!), my target(found !) !!
target : Asia Pacific Interior Design Awards (APIDA)
if i got this target, i ll keep my own on the studies. why i failed last time? cos i dun have target.
i want competition to recognize me, i really need tat. as i said, wanna be good ? not enough.....i wanna be the best, the star. hey man, is real....competative huh ? so be the shining one.

Ya....
a complete full-stop.

ppl easy to get into one situation or maybe 3, 4, 5.....tat u stuck ur head there, continue moving on altho is the end.

ppl not easy to be satisfied. most of them need more and more. think carefully.....

i let the fate decide.

热情淡了吗 想抽身了吗
聊电话也泄气了吗
旧承诺应不假 却忍不到闷吧
惦记当天处处鲜花#互缠着到老 不死都疲劳
还是跟你痛快结束
为承诺守得到 拍拖都变义务
没法稀罕你这情操
去吧 犹如候鸟飞走吧
未奢想你迷途知返
自由来换失恋那代价
你真的相信值得吗 #*是我太过爱你 愿意放生你
无谓你抱阵我也这么的晦气
我亦算知丑 无谓强迫你
难道要我对着你句句要生要死
就当爱错了你 就当放生你
无谓你说话里有这么多怨气
我就放开手 无谓再忍你
明白放过你是放过自己这个道理

those who dun know english....pls go and translate....it will be useful...
the song Let Go, fong shang.

concerntrate...
concerntrate....
in my life now....pls....

today would like to have a closest detail about myself..

10:02pm = jas sitting in da office after finishing part of the job. and thinking, men are always selfish. and kick their asses. and by the way, they are fully addicted to some games, their brain just stuck there.stupid....

05:47am = jas is sitting here. listening 2 lame fellas joke. EW.sakit perut.....=.= i wanna go toilet !!!

too bad no sensitive issue can write in my blog...
else there will be more interesting on my life...=P

I suddenly found out i brought 2 bottles of Lancome Tropiques from HKIA, one for my mama, one is mine....and i totally forgot it !! the salegal told me tat this fragrance only limited in airport....hmm....i dun give a damn, but it smells like white floral....very sweet smell.....until my nose cant forget it...here is it =)

tat day went to Jogoya with ah chan......................=D so damn expensive but is sooooooooo much gorgeous... let the picture do the talking...altho is just few pics...

Your Life Path Number is 7

Your purpose in life is to find truth and meaning You are very spiritual, and you are interested in the mysteries of life. You are quite analytical and a great thinker. You have many theories and insights. A life of solitude is perfect for you. You need time to think and do things your way. In love, you are quite charming. You attract many with your confidence and wit. While you enjoy being alone, sometimes you take it to an extreme. You can become too isolated, shutting out loved ones and friends. Express yourself a little bit more, and you'll be surprised where it takes you!

What Is Your Life Path Number?

found this in samantha's blog feel exciting to try and see what the fish is my life path, cos i really lost now a day. hehe...im isolated.....i am....and i really need something secure to let me release out. this cant asily be found, nor fren nor partner....im a lil poor thing, hehe...=D

who cares? i dun mind spending time alone and think more....

i read all my previous blogs in space.msn....
tats a lot about u and me.......
and i will continue writing them....
until one day, u dun want to spend ur time with me,
until u found someone tat is more commited then me,
until u feel uneasy to my attitude,
until u no need care from me...
until...whatever reason u gave, i ll let u go.....cos i want u to be happy....
u know tat ?

i need a lot a lot a lot of music therapy....




walking into fairy tales, into those forest tat only exist in fairy tales....

i saw river flowing....swams swiming.....all in a scene tat seems so peaceful....

i wanna try again, i cant be so selfish....to dump u here...
so i managed a good lunch, booked movie and arrange a good time on monday, ready to spend with him.
this morning i confessed to u, i wanna be with him here, at here, forever.....
buy a house, have a quiet life....i dun care what ppl said, im ordinary....
if one day, really have tat one day, we have to separate, we ll never regret. ^^

张栋梁 - 只因为你
从清晨露出微笑的金黄
我知道我不会再孤单
看你为我绽放的脸庞
放在心上有了你我的世界不一样
童话里幸福终结了忧伤
你是我最靠近的坚强
有你陪我自在地遨翔
抬头仰望天空
变成一座游乐场世界更明亮
只因为你我情不自禁闭上眼睛
心里想了想
还是你不让你离开我的手心
呵护着你 幻想着紧抱在我怀里
只因为你我情不自禁
这样为你证明我不再 孩子气
如果有一天我们老去寸步不离
回忆里如镜子都是你

从清晨露出微笑的金黄
我知道我不会再孤单
看你为我绽放的脸庞
放在心上有了你我的世界不一样
童话里幸福终结了忧伤
你是我最靠近的坚强
有你陪我自在地遨翔
抬头仰望
天空变成一座游乐场世界更明亮
只因为你我情不自禁闭上眼睛
心里想了想还是你不让你离开我的手心
呵护着你 幻想着紧抱在我怀里
只因为你我情不自禁
这样为你证明我不再 孩子气
如果有一天我们老去寸步不离
回忆里如镜子都是你
只因为你我情不自禁闭上眼睛
心里想了想还是你
不让你离开我的手心呵护着你 幻想着紧抱在我怀里
只因为你我情不自禁这样为你证明我不再 孩子气
如果有一天我们老去寸步不离回忆里如镜子都是你

"do what a 24th year old should do !"
"jaslin, go for ur dream.if not, u will regret in ur life."
shit, i've struggle all this years...just for this word came out from a fren of mine.
morning, woke up so peacefully, everything seems so silent to me.
is like i never 24th and i got a lot of times to decide what is good for me.
study is never too late =)

when i decide everything and settle everything, is the time i ll announce.

margaret self study IN-DE. hehe......crazy !u think easy ar ???!!!
what ? u can work with them, is better to waste money study.
at least she didnt say im stupid or brainless,
at least i got a supporter =)

once i bother about my feelings, the unpleasent way of doing things are so annoying....
what can make me really go for a change ? i need a supporter altho tats just one.....
i want a lot of frens, i want them call me once they have party or anything....
i got a lot "frens", but not as they will do like tat to me..
i envy.......
deep down there envy....

im like a little idiot tat only write things for myself..
dear jas, dear jas and dear jas...
feeling so unbelong....lonely....unsecure.
tats no one wanna know me well..tats how i feel...
i might be need some attention from the world.
or maybe my personality have some problem ?making everyone hate me or bias me ?
in relationship, im admit im zero man....actually do u know what i want ?
in family, im rebel, forever rebel....actually do u all know what i want ?
i blame and blame....self esteem is tat low....
u said u loves me, why not u know me ?
not to say, what i like what what what..
is about why......
i wanna keep this to myself....but i scare i will kill myself one day....
i didnt want to know u bother me or not....
if my blog is wrote just for the sake i asked u to read.....what for ?
u understand the meaning ?

latest pic......just give some feedback and drop me one line of msg in msn also.
im fat btw...

tats something begun, then the end is slowly appear....
just right when u close ur eyes.......open ur eyes again, its faded away.....
just life there is...
i dun give a damn about it. it hurts.

if someone realise im writting something "contradictions" here, yes, im contradictions then.
is just the way i am. once moment here, once monent tat....
my life is a complete mess, yes, u c me good, i c u good...hehe...

to those who wanna know me better, just read and accept the facts.
to those who think im a complete idiot and brainless, go ahead and stop reading, cos i advised u tat this blog is written by a very high intelligent and educated idiot ![hahahahaha....]

i wanna be good, if i can learn my lesson from someone better then me.
the one saids my blog is a complete trash is ah chan, btw..

我的人生,很乱中.
无奈中,失意中,迷途中.

i wanna try some weeds..
just once...and i want to see the worsest side of me, maybe i might wake up from the dark and face the sunshine with my heart.-quote from jaslin.

sometimes, ppl like me will do right things...
altho life is full of errors....dun let ur mind come over u.

just to update all wanted to do for the previous wednesday..

Do my bed
wash toilet
cook lunch for my sis
tidy my "closets"(there are 2 !!)
clean my room
do some laundry
iron some shirts
a whole 4 hours marathon jap intensive studies

screwed !! =P
is a total fatal !! HAHAHHAHAA...god damn plan !

And again i think myself a stalker.and why so ? cos when someone is about to know where my bf is, and things he promised, he cant make it and he come and blame u for STALKING him(not directly, u know is those stupid slang, i ll tell u if i got free alright ?) ? WTF ?
i try not to complaint anymore on ur "compliance" sorry la boi..is kinda hard lo ! and i feel like im sitting here like a quiet [hctib], studying and let u not to suspect me. to tell u frankly, i NOT SO LIKE IT lo !! u know im a outgoing person, and u tell me to bare in mind if im going with some guys and same goes to u ? hense another WTF ?

ok, this is what i did on tonight. i have a slightly chat with shell online, and she came out with a simple diet plan,i guess i NEED them soooooooo much ! >.<> this diet plan takes 3 weeks. im finding my diet recipe at my floor, but not seems to find it, so ya...find online, google.com ma !! haha! tomolo is my day 1. now thinking......thinking.....ah ha !here goes...

current calories needed(based on scientific calculation):1713.
reason keeping fit: to wear nice short skirts.
lotion:McWell shaping creame, whole body.
cloths:tight black reebok pant
food: vegi and mee for tomolo night
exercise:wake up early around 5 pm to jogging for 30 mins around the park.
food tat i bring to work tomolo: 3 pieces of bread(80 cal x 3 = 240 cal ) + diet milk (86 cal.) = total cals. is 326 cals.

*****************************KEEP FIT PERIOD************************

my whole new glasses from the shop,
ah chan have some comment bout my frame,
well......i like wor !!! so, u cant stop me ah chan =P
the frame is almost the same as ah chan one ! hehe...=D

saw this very pretty couple ring ~~
see those crowne !! oh no...........wonder what ah chan said about it, =P is NT1999, not bad loooh !!
i dun usually buy ring, but this worth to buy..... !!!!

Why my blog title named "Full of passionate and lust" ?
cos im not too such a person now, i want to paint up my life.
Passionate on life, do what the heck it takes to live no regrets.
Lust on life, is not giving up to be in high level humanity. (by the way...human is a lusty animal.)
tats what jas wanna do in her life....
u can too ? show it !

This few days...i didnt update my blog, didnt studies, ddint help up my parents, didnt tidy my room, im a piece of shit..Zzzz....anyway, tml gonna do something to change the view of mine seeing this world ^^

Do my bed
wash toilet
cook lunch for my sis
tidy my "closets"(there are 2 !!)
clean my room
do some laundry
iron some shirts
a whole 4 hours marathon jap intensive studies

u think these all easy ar ? aiks.....>.<

Tipsy Biich~
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was about 3:55 am now....
im saw inside my msn, and saw someone named "menaz"..right, she is my cousin fyi.
and now she is in CANADA, doing HER DEGREE with THE UNIVERSITY OF ULETH ?
and i just want her some living pic, so called "hows ur hostel there looks like?""hows u going on with ur frens?"and a simple"how are u ?" and she saids...
menaz says:
u know if u want to have a look at my university and how big it is u can look at their website it is www.uleth.ca that will show how big it is
menaz says:
it is called the university of lethbridge that is the place where i am
menaz says:
in lethbridge, alberta canada
and tell u what.....from even our younger age, she is from kuwait and of cos born in different background from my house...on tat time was gulf war(check on google.com, u know what am i tokking bout..), and their family(my aunt, my uncle, her and her sis named sarah) came to my place, stay for.....few years ? or few centuries i forgot, and pls dun remind me. Steal our toys......our favor dinner time.....hit my sis somemore, BAKA BAKA......showing off her INTERNATIONAL SCHOOL's attitude(screwed them!) what la.....didnt see ur result is better then me 0.o few years later....they moved, THANK GOD !!!!

one fine day........menaz's mum came to my mum..."my 2 daughters are going to CANADA by this coming @&%)#^" alright....they are gone. no wonder asked me to show them where to buy pendrive....from what i knew is...they are taking some sort of education fees(har ? scholar ar ?) or ur family came out with the money oh ? unknown, but is great la....they are gone.

Found something extraordinary....today !!
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Today, woke up and cooked for family...
i have no more complaints on wake up too early when all the night shift pissed me off la...
cos when i saw my mama and my sis face....the smile of satisfaction...tat passion of willing to cook is boiling inside me. And i gonna make them delicious !! oh yes !!

cooking for someone and some reason is better then u just "COOK".
i finally figured out tat food is full of loves and care... ...and u will be hepi doing tat.
i found the reason of cooking...and i will do it for my family....peace ^^V

Pick Me ! Pick Me !
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Is like nth happen today when i walked into the office.
"hey ! why u here? i tot u changed to MXL d ?"
"............"
"har?"
"(continue speechless)"
this company have some weird policies.
im still speechless......feel tat im a rubbish tat need "anyone" to pick up.
oh btw, some art-senseless fella said my "tattoo" such a junk, =P i like u like ?

My 1st Inai Tattoo...
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Today,went out with a fren,we named her W.
We went neway, walk around time square and lowyat.what gals do, we do la-.-" bored actually...
dun know la, not used to go out oledi. wanna stay at home with my parents tat feel nice to me.
anyway...we went to this called "purple cane" tea place to have a drink and guess what...i ate some lamb steak at neway, is all bones and fats, guys, trust me u dun wanna choose this..and i just picked some food and drinks at the tea place.
and after tat we went to central market (which is a malay culture central), we didnt went in, this gal wanna pick up her cert from FXXS college, so we there. Tats one lil stall drawn my attention...is INAI TATTOO...hmmmmmmmmm....im thinking of making one since i saw some malays made them very nice..so, i did it.K saids not nice...=.= what the heck !!! know how to see what is ART or nto ??? .< > .< > ARGH !!! i tot is special....=.= and he come and say not nice...but who cares....tats my body =P na na na ~ ive made one at my left hand, near my shoulder =X

-BEfore !!
- After ~

New blog....
decided to change blog...cos msn space is sux...
sometimes not even can connect....
so, here this is...i wil starts here.....