今晚要开工了。许久没有上班（虽然只有6天）。
很想念上班的日子，还会看到很多很久没有见的同事，呵呵！
很想念你们哦~~~~~~

大哥他曾经说过，我一脚踏两船是不对的。毕竟这样做是不对的。
他推测我曾经被别人伤害过，所以变成这样吧？
开始的jas很活泼，很无忧无虑的。
当然也很天真，就这样，我被人骗了第一份感情。
我的初恋，我是第三者。悲哀。
伤害？我可能不承认自己失败吧？
就这样几次了，我坚强的生活着下去。无论怎样，我觉得这个世界很大，别人没了你，他同样可以生存下去，我也可以。

你们知道吗？我一直都是在逞强。咬牙切齿的生存着。
tats no place tat a gal like me belong....i must stay very freaking tough to live on a pain tat no one can suffered.
a monster in my body is growing bigger and bigger.

其实要了解一个认真的很难。
我以为我了解你，原来，我被他骗了。
所谓的很寂寞，很无聊都是骗人的。
我习惯了。我也没有任何损失，只是觉得很伤.
但是伤伤下，不知觉的接受了事实。
我也不再挂念。你和我的从前，而且清楚那是过去。
我很笨，但是我曾经对你，是真的。
我不会欺骗自己的感觉。
我还是自私的jas.

After yam cha session, we(WKL, Beh Beh and shi fu) went to this lil stall road beside to enjoy a taste of durian, i been so obsess to durian !!! so, ya, we had it after a bottle of Skol.

Chee hoi said my blog quite emotional, admitted tat. i dun know what can i blog when i put it too serious like those gals,"i went where else where else shopping", "i bought what shit what shit", ok.

and i bought asam laksa, it bring my body heat to the max ! tml MC =X

Ok....i banged another car. Twice in 2 months.
My colleague's car? Toyota Vios.
Injured? none.
Car injured? terribly (is my car-RICKY ZAIIIIII)
and his ? left side bumper falls.... -.-"
my car is 2nd, but i think he loves his car damn much. And he asked me not to pay him back.
tats impossible... ... i dun like to owe ppl money or anything.


why ? what im thinking lately ? wasnt i on the mood of concerntration ?
maybe not enough of sleeps and not getting output as input so many?
as i dun trust ppl around me ?
really wish someone tat understand can tok to me, consult me and care for me.

Freakin horoscope so damn accurate. WTF !

i been so long didnt dare to see my horoscope, maybe im afraid tat it would cos i lost my day, and it just did !
みて。。

The Bottom Line
Other people may dramatically affect your day. Create a backup plan.

In Detail
When you're driving in your car, you realize that you are not the only driver on the road -- after all, you must be aware of what other people are doing in order to be as safe as you can be. This awareness should apply to all areas of your life right now. Take note of who is around you and how they are behaving. Be careful of how others may affect day's scheduled route. Plan a detour, just in case.

Xes gave me a site is about HTML coding for the xmas snowing effects, hehehehe.... http://www.dynamicdrive.com/dynamicindex3/snow.htm

so i asked a fren(colleague of mine) min min to help me edit this ^^ THANKS !! and hepi xmas................to all the readers in Jas's blog....

=====MERRY CHRISTMAS !! =====

刚和一位女朋友谈天。
才知道自己好像看透了感情。
有时候和他聊电话的时候都好像没有什么了。
那种热情，都好像很假装。
我知道自己没有不爱他，也没有不热情的对他。
但是好像少了点点什么。

-不知道-^^

Really quite a busy lately.

-need to finish ASRM asap, which is tonight, so tat tml i can go print something in da office. due date : tonight.
-need to finish the list of guests names in Marge dinner. due date : tomolo night.
-need to arrange a list of compilation songs for the dinner. due date : postponed to tomolo night.

and im sleepy sleepy and sleepy. But i still dun like to sleep.=P

每天对自己说做不到的男人最没有用了。
你想不想真的做没有用的人啊？


笨蛋！

shit, when i about to open blooger.com, i at here dun know what i wanted to blog bout. Just when i felt some inspiration, and my brain blank in few second. ya, anyway.

realise living is a good thing. and working for living is kinda fun, start to love ur work when u trying to enjoy them. same here. so ya...............i ll start to focus on my work. of cos my financial. i also realise tat i didnt concerntrate and work my part well. wanna become a team leader ? u need a very hardwork WOMAN ! u think easy ar ?? so, i sitting here trying to read ASRM (define: Application System Run Manual)

living in luxury is such a joy........................im not trying to be materialistic, but is so attracted u c....很多东西等着我去做。真的很多，生命真的多精彩。hehe....

sometimes stupidility can make urself to see clearer how human react when everything is not under their own control but 3rd party controlled.

frens will said it was stupid trust gals. is true, but ya... ... at least, someone felt aggresive and furious but im not. bad gal is worse. dun u think ?

maybe i cant stop the arguement between us.
and finally i let u choose, and let u said.
why are u think tat u are not important to me ? is this what my return after all the things ?
proposed ? i maybe too rush about it la...
come on la, lets forget about it... ...
大哥说，和你结婚那个未必是你最喜欢的那个。

Few days back, i propsed to kit.
"can u married me ?"
"........."
"u heard me right ?can u married me ?"
"why ?"
"cos i want to marry u loh...."
"i said b4, we havent...."
"i know i know, financial ar....relationship ar...i understood...so u maried to me ?"
"no."
"........"
"why no ?"
"cos dun want loh!" conversation ended here, back there a laugh, hahaha !
he blushed ^^ and i feel so hepi to see him smiling.....
i want to propose again ^^ this time with 2 rings, see he married me or not.
dai kor said i rebel from traditional. i dun care la...i wanted a married and i will maintain it. if this cant be done by Kit, so i wish to do for myself.

kidd = xiu hei guai !! but i love him so much....i dare not angry anymore, cos i know u care about me. and waited me last night >.<

This coming xmas will be my sister's wedding dinner @ Marco Polo Restaurant.
whole family is looking towards it. All the invitation seems to give away by my parents, and my lil sister fion is looking for a dinner dress and my big sis Marge is readying her wedding gown.

And me ? sitting here doing nth while blogging, hmmm......this sat will go some place to find my gown, black in color, long.....fion the red swam, marge the white swam, and of cos....im the black swam. This Xmas, our family will be all together. Happy Family. ^^

0617am after 26 hours of shift, i finally sleep till now. This is my 1st time ever work so hard. why ? cos i cant stop down. if i stopped down, my emotion will take over me, i cant make a proper decision. Shell saids it right..i got a lot distraction, it has be some way to get out, right ? im not a person tat sit there waiting or sighing, im a problem solver. ppl said im a very aggresive gal. ya, tats true. anger management....

0638am saw this in someplace, "There is no more sunshine nor rainbow as the storm has taken over the both..." i still care about it. and it will never gone from my heart no matter how hard i tried to get it off. shit....if u understand what i said....

things tat flash thru my head today:
a rebound relationship....when u can ur bf/gf broke up, suddenly a person appeared, will he/she be the victim of u rebound ? i think i ll. and i will treated him exactly like a true bf....maybe i aint tat love him, but i ll try too. tats so unfair to the rebound victim, but what to do ? we are human, human do have feelings.... i dun want any of my frens be my rebound victim.

i been sitting whole day there busying my changes, my job, my backups, my control-m and my TNG, very tired due to yesterday played bowling and i didnt sleep too well at night...i wanna learn as many thing as possible when he still here to teach me. He is a great guy =) a farny gemini, kekeke...calling me Khoong Pui Sze.-.-" what the shit ? and telling other TS to call me like tat next time. AINT FARNY !! but one thing is, he said i learn things quick but forget things fast =X kekekkekekee....

been so tired lately, mind and body. tats all i have to say in this blog.
and ya....i miss LKC. no matter what happen, i will still let u choose ur own path. i dun want to argue anymore la, tat is worse.

a fatal attracted--a fatal faith--a fatal breakingover--a fatal missing--a fatal memories--a fatal past. - full-stop

Passion comes, passion goes...
what is ur passion of life ?

my passion of life is just wanting to get wild now. but aint this time.
cos my passion is slowly dying and is slowly killing me.
back into normal again. damn, is just too normal to be true.

Spazzo Bistro (Melacca) Pres. BOOTYLICIOUS NIGHTS on 6th December 2006

dun get me wrong, i didnt go. just helping frens to promote ~ but ya ! KL why dun have one ????i cant show off my bikini and body DUH !!!

咩世界？依家解释唔到以后都唔稀罕解释。
第一次用广东话来翻译自己个心情，无奈。
时不时浪费自己的时间type一type反映下都唔错。
烂香港人都其实唔会晤好。=P
容易忘记o耶啊嘛！

for those dun know how to read chinese.(pls use HK to translate)
mie sai kai ? yi ka kai sik mm dou, yi hao dou mm hei hon kai sik.
dai yat ci yong gong dong hua lai fan yik zi gei geh sum ching, mou noi.
shi bat shi long fai zi gei dik shi kan type yat type fan ying yat har dou mm cuo.
lan xiong gong yan dou kei sat mm hui mm hou. =P
yong yi mong gei ye a ma !

for those dun really understand what i type above, pls read this.....-.-"
what world is this ? cant explaint now, dun think can explain.
1st time using KwongTong language to translate my mood, speechless.
sometimes wasted time to reflect my mood, not bad.
be a hong kee sometimes also not bad.=P
easy to forget things ah ma !

Tats a lot in life, tat u have to choose.

and u all will know im actually a very unhepi person....with this sort sort sort of reasons...

i made a lot ppl hepi b4, i bring them go cafe, let frens all around him/her, i dun abandon those being forgotten. but i let myself suffered. maybe it hurts me damn deep, its still haunting me...i sweared b4, wanna be a hepi person. let a guy love me as long as possible. i be tat tough bcos i dun know who will love me like i will protect myself more. i gave too much out, never search for return from u. but i saw some returned from u, its not a good return.

K....its been so hard. u know ?